Every few life-crisis I tend to change what’s the worst feeling I think you could ever have in the world.
Really looking forward to something topping this. Because this is just…sad and tragic…and if you think about it long enough you could hurt yourself.
I think the worst feeling in the world is knowing you have a voice that no one cares to listen to.
And I think what makes this even worse is a tiny wish that there was someone out there in the world who would look at you and say, “I hear you; I understand.”
And possibly considering in a world of 6 billion people, there’s no one who would ever say those words to you.
So, you have to go through life speaking in vain.
That you could marry one day and it never changes.
That your children and grandchildren are equally dismissive.
That you die but no-one knew.
And at the funeral no one says that the only thing you ever wanted was to be heard.
And then you’re forgotten.
Thinking about this traffic situation on a morning from East-West. During VSOA and CHOGM motorists were allowed to use the far right lane of the East-bound (if facing East) to head West from Piarco intersection. There is less traffic heading East on a morning anyway. Why not have a trial period where we open that lane? I drove on that lane all the way to the lighthouse already.
Everyone heading up-town can easily turn off by the lighthouse and those in the other lanes can join them at any intersection before said lighthouse. Another lane would help very much.
Two problems: That CRH-UBH intersection and Trincity intersection. Because of construction works still taking place, it could be very confusing for a motorist. At the same time I’m sure some more thinkers could find a way around that.
Just trying to come up with ways to alleviate the traffic on a morning heading into POS.
Also, still an advocate of Telecommuting. Some people don’t physically need to be in the office some days and can more than be productive from their desktop computers or laptops at home.
Also, still want that high-speed rail…and have it from South to North. East to West already has a Priority Bus Route.
Also, the CNG push should be aborted. Most people like their trunk space. They don’t care if it will save them $20 a day. When you pay tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of dollars for a vehicle…you want to know that you’ll have your trunk space. Simple. You know what I think may be more progressive? Electric cars or hybrid vehicles.
However, maybe CNG should be an available option. Those who prefer to have it should have the right to choose. Other than that, Gov’t should stop bullying the public. We don’t like it.
Hey, you, in this space. Hi. Hi there.
I know I’ve been gone for a while. Apologies. The quarter-life has been interesting, that’s for sure.
Started this blog to deal with the barrage of emotions. I said, you know, let me work through this by writing.
And, it really did help. I wrote through everything. Came out on the other side more understanding, less frazzled.
Well another thing happened and that’s why I’ve been absent.
I met someone…and he has “bewitched me heart and soul”…to borrow a line from one of my favourite movies (can you guess which one?).
This man came into my world—where I was pleasantly hiding—and disrupted everything. In a good way.
In the past five months I’ve gone out way more than I’m used to. Dressed up more than I’m used to. Brushed my teeth way more than before. And the list goes on…I even wore shoes I haven’t worn for years.
It’s an exciting time. It’s also a scary time. I feel like any minute someone will wake me up. But it doesn’t seem to be happening. The uncertainty is unsettling. But it’s the very thing that drives me.
He reminds me of simple things I forgot long ago. He reminds me that everyday is a gift and you’ve got to live…no one else is going to do that for you. You have to live. I have to live.
So I’m out there living. Trying to anyway. Not back to full strength but I’m out there giving it a go.
Just wanted to let you know. Thanks for reading.
— Message from a friend this morning