when did we replace the word “said” with “was like”
When it occured to us that “said” implies a direct quote, while “was like” clarifies that you mean to communicate the person’s tone and general point without quoting them word for word.
Knowledge. Dropping like bass…
I start to think of all the guys I could call and then it hits me—there are no other guys. A lot of time was spent cutting ties and sharing forgiveness like a word on Sunday.
Gosh. I could never be that girl. I can’t run to an ex-boyfriend. It’s not that simple to pick up the phone and dial the number of that old flame.
Because it’s like, what old flame? My mind doesn’t do that. It doesn’t think that "something’s still there". I don’t hold on.
The quarter-life problems are alive and kicking!
There are times (like these) where I write what I think is the “worst feeling in the world”. And I write it for the moment because each time I write it based on the moment it changes.
So just to recap, the last “worst feeling in the world” was wanting someone to hear you but no one cares to listen, and you spend all your life talking but no one cares, and then you die and no one ever says that all you wanted was to be heard. And then you’re forgotten.
Pretty morbid stuff right?
Ok so new crisis. New moment. New “worst feeling in the world”.
The worst feeling in the world is feeling the need to talk to someone because you’re so broken inside. You’re furious you think you can scream or cry but no tears come and you have no voice…worse—there is no one to talk to. You run through a list of excellent names in your head but there’s no one to talk to because no one could really, truly understand except the source of your grief.
Sorry. Yes, I know. Context is needed here. Back in the media. Sort of. Kind of. Update, soon. But needed to rant a bit.
Worked on a story today and stared at it all day and felt sad. It needs something more. The story itself is crying out for justice. I just couldn’t put the facts. I needed answers. Somebody needed to hold big and bad corporations and “bodies” accountable. That person should be me. I am that person. But, when one of the wrong and strong companies sponsor one of my newscasts how could I say “brought to you by XYZ…*smile* …In our top story: XYZ commits corporate murder!!” ???
And then, in that second, I saw everything wrong with this industry…particularly this section. Rotten at the core.
They buy out the media so we can’t tell the truth. But media says OK ‘cause that’s how we “pay our bills”.
"…when they own the information…they can bend it all they want…" - a line from a John Mayer song.
What a weight resting on my shoulders tonight.
It’s what brings me here.
Never want to feel alone.